Wednesday, June 17, 2009

i need human heat



HEY, SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GOOD FRIEND OF THE DUO JOSEPH SHORT. GREAT GUY, ADD MORE WISHES YOURSELF.

excepting when blaine starts humping wildly on the dancefloor (classy not trashy friend), i like to think that we here at the pyroglyphics headquarters are pretty good about keeping our technosexuality (yep, you guessed it, that means absolutely nothing) to ourselves and we're proud of that. so it is with that little intro that i must break from that to discuss this next track. well, hold up, this track is by frightened rabbit, a scottish band. and the remix is by dj die young, a fantastic young dj out of beantown (thats boston for the uninitiated) here's the songs, but i'm gonna write something after it, so please keep on, i hope its decent enough to keep you reading.






i don't know how to start this really, at what point can i put myself out there honestly and give myself the privacy i feel i deserve? without asking rhetorical questions over and over again. i guess before you read listen to the song, and give these here lyrics a good read. i will now attempt to answer the question, why do i feel bad for this guy? not pity, but genuinely empathize with him.

living in north carolina my whole adolescence i never really got a sense that anyone really cared about their virginity, its not like a modern day roman orgy or anything, but really, who waited? very few. why did they wait? the reasons varied from person to person much the same way that they varied among people who did have sex. funny thing is the excuses were ultimately the same: one friend of mine said to me "i'm just waiting for the right guy" then later, "i found the right guy and i'm happy with my decision" and most recently "he was such a tool." moving to mississippi i have found that the reasons kind of begin to narrow, but so does the discussion. people just don't talk about their sex lives in mississippi, i could assume that this is because in this culture it is more "taboo" to talk about, or simply that every conception in the state is immaculate. but i know this isn't the case.

what does this have to do with the song above, well in a way very little, in a way a lot. does the act of sex between two people really have anything to do with society? no, the singer doesn't even care that the girl knows his name. for him its all about the act, the contact. with a little religion thrown in there however, it becomes a much bigger deal, love and responsibility become the name of the game. the thought of sex as something to be desperate for is repulsive. i mean, lets not even get ahead of ourselves, there's desperation, and then there's just being horny, we really don't even know about that much. one could even argue that marriage is a trivial process, beverly hayman-polen would beg to differ and say marriage is a big deal to the two up there.

i think the biggest thing for me is simply that we need. at some point we all get driven into needing the things we want, or simply don't have. i like to think of it like how when i was a kid, i would need a toy, namely some probably badass batman toy accessories galore. did i have to have the toy? no. but as a kid, dammit i wanted it, i wanted it so bad that mentally, i just had to have it. in my limited capacity i associated the toy with love and affection, wrongly i would later come to appreciate. but i tricked myself into needing that thing i prolly would have been better without anyway. i think we as humans do that, and we know whats its like to want what we can't have, and in the end, need it. so i guess i don't associate really with his need for sex, but its just what happens when we idolize our "primal desires."

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